Soon..

I leave to red deer in four days. oh my.

I love Cats

Hummm,

I know I can be a real bitch, but I'm tired of it.

Fight after fight. No more fights.

They aren't worth it.

I want to be loved and give love more than anything else.

I try.

I try and be the patient one.
The one who forgives.

I hate that I am always made out to be the one who cant be trusted.


I'm at the point now it's make or break.

Wowwee!

Okay so, not such a good day.

Cant seem to get along with my *OhIamsoinlovewith* boyfriend.

I think we broke up tonight.
Or at least I think maybe we should..?
As soon as we get away from each other for more than a week all we do is fight.


so uhm.

HM.
I am stumped.

Trying not to let it get me down.
My mother always used to tell me to repeat this to myself (and I suggest it to all of you if you feel down):
"I love myself and I am love"

Yes, you are love.

If I can convince myself of that for more than 5 minutes..so should you.

Slept All Day

Although today is a whole new day for sure.
I really want to spend more time with myself, and learning bout myself.


Today I deleted my facebook.
I was surprised how many people told me they understand.
So why is there so many of us on FB, if we all feel its pressure? Why do people put them selves in that situation??
The website is a big joke to me.


Anyways, I'm having a good day.


Last night was another story though..
I've really got to find a way to get over depression...
But I dont know how..
Every solution I come up with fails.
Maybe go back to meds..? I hate that thought.








I bought some books yesterday:
Conversations with Dali
&
Songs Before Sunrise

The first book I hope is self explanatory.
The second book is a poetry book, published in 1917. I love the style of it. On the hard cover there is engraved acorns. The poems are lovely. <3
I feel less alone when I read.

And Id rather take the time to read with myself than get distracted playing Farmville.